In the picture above you will see me on my wedding day almost exactly 4 years ago. I stand in that picture holding the hand of a man I loved.

You may have guessed, I am no longer married, living in Bali and a very different person. I have grown so much, i do not look at life how it ‘should’ be defined by society, or norms but I am actively exploring it on a deeper level, trying to define how I want it to look in my own way.

When I left my marriage I left what could have been deemed as perfect life. It sounds crazy, I left everything to follow a powerful calling within and an absolute need to do it and to follow my own path.

I had a light to share with the world and I was so afraid of it going out. I remember trying to explain this to my ex, he could not understand what was wrong with me.”you have this perfect life Hannah, why can’t you just take it?”

I mention this because a few weeks ago I met with him for the first time since I left the UK. It was so emotional, i felt no ill feeling, my heart was just filled with love, It was like I had been reunited with my best friend for almost 9 years of my life. I did not want to be with him, I would not change my choices, but I realized I still loved him deeply and just wanted him to be happy.

This meeting really got me thinking and exploring the whole concept of relationships. Is it possible to love more than one person? Are we supposed to be with one person forever, can we love more than one person at the same time? What are relationships really about and is a lot of how we live and experience relationships dictated to us by society and what is deemed to be right and wrong? Are we supposed to be Magnanimous or Polyamorous? When we meet the right person do we always just want to be with them? Are we so ingrained with the thought of how we think life ‘should’ look that we never explore out of it?

As someone who has spent most of my life in long-term relationships, being fiercely loyal I guess I just want to ask the question and hear your thoughts? To explore and question life, knowing that many things are not right or wrong, just open to define in our own way…..